Sunday, March 23, 2014

keeping it real

More than a month has gone by and I haven't posted here. There are no excuses. We've been riding the depression roller coaster here in this house and it's exhausting. I'm sure most of you are all too familiar with this ride.

It's a pity it's not exhilarating and fun instead being dark, tiresome and something I can't wait to get off.

The constant despair is what I'm finding hard to cope with this time around. It starts to become all consuming and is so hideous the way it finds ways of robbing you of the simple pleasures in life.

Being surrounded by this is a heavy burden and tests my naturally positive state of being.

Even my 'glass half full' approach started to look very empty.

To see someone you love suffering in such a way is nothing less than heartbreaking.

Then last week there was a slight change in mood. Not sure what it was, maybe the last argument we had. The enormous black cloud may have changed to grey, we are aiming for a big fluffy silver one!

Peace and harmony has returned to our house and I can't even pretend to tell you how incredibly happy that makes me.

I'm taking one day at a time, I dare not look too far ahead but I'm certainly not looking back.

If this sounds like what you're going through or have been through with your partner let me tell you, you're certainly not alone.

Take care out there and may we all have a little more light in our lives even it it's just a light shade of grey.

Mel x


  1. Hi Mel
    Sorry just saw your last posting. Glad to hear from you again.
    Hey my blog is called one day at a time because that's how I work through this each day. I've just spent the last hour looking at the communities for children organisation in Cambodia run by the Australian Scott Neeson. How inspirational! I just want to go over there and volunteer right now. But I know that my place is here doing what I can to support my partner. Yes depression is a debilitating disorder. I found a great website called a spouse's story. The link is on my blog. It has helped me to read this partner's story of PTSD. I have found some really helpful things to use with my partner. It's nice to see that we are not alone. Keep posting Mel.

    1. Hi Lyn
      Nice to see you pop up here again. Yes it has been hard work of late but we are hanging in there. You're right about just taking things one day at a time. Amazing the difference a week can make too! Thanks for the link to the 'spouse's story'. I have had a look but will be keen to read it this week. It really makes me happy to think we can share our experiences and learn and support each other. It really does make a difference knowing others understand.
      Take care Lyn and thanks for your comment.